My husband and I always agreed on having two children and when we were blessed with a girl and a boy the decision was final, or so I thought.
My husband felt content with his pigeon pair and didn’t want a third child. Me, on the other hand never felt complete. I loved being pregnant, I felt extremely empowered by the whole birth process and I just loved being a mum. However, there was always something in the back of my mind wanting a third child.
As the years passed I did my best to put these thoughts aside, I tried to rationalize all crazy inconveniences of a third child, it’s too expensive, bigger car, holidays are a whole new ball game, a table for four is easier to get than a table for five, hotel rooms are ideal for a family of four, the list was endless. Still, I couldn’t get this third child out of my mind.
I tried to push these feelings aside and learn to accept and be grateful for all my blessings in life. But strangely enough I always saw this 3rd child, he or she was there. I couldn’t explain it but it was there and it was real.
I sold and/or donated all my baby things and I mean everything, from cot and compactum, to pram to clothes and toys. We were done with babies.
Then life happens and tragedy struck. The future looked grim to say the least. It was during this personal heartache that I realized that there are no rules in life and things can change in a moment. I needed to live each day as if it were my last, and if I wanted another child I needed to do what felt right in my heart. I needed to find peace within myself. I had to let this little soul come, the one that I could feel so strongly in my heart and could see so clearly in my mind.
Fast forward 8 years and our precious little boy is here, a ray of sunshine in our lives, an absolute blessing. I feel complete.
Some would say we are starting all over again and going backwards, quite the contrary, we are moving forward. There is peace in my heart and our family is complete. We are a family of five.
There is no greater blessing than having a new little person in the house. Now to get started with all things baby related and get all the necessities from cot to compactum and all things in-between. Being a more experienced mum I had a better idea of the things I really needed.
